Learning to Dance in The Rain

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...it's about learning to dance in the rain...or in this case the snow..its snowing...lol!
I seem to be encountering storm after storm lately...haven't drowned this time though...trying to find the good still in my life...a home...a job...my mom...my kids and grand kids...friends...and good memories...

Life has its wonders...even in the darkest times...today was windy...crazy at work...late afternoon brought the snow...winter is here...I don't like winter much...hate being cold...I've referred to myself as a lizard...like the heat...
But the snow blanket is beautiful...the night quiet and peaceful...the wind has died...and its Friday....I choose to look at the bright points today...like a butterfly flitting from bloom to bloom...taking time to stop and smell the flowers...

Growing wings and learning to fly...even though its winter...my wings are still evolving...growing and changing...I guess I'm more like the caterpillar spinning its cocoon....waiting for spring to see what will emerge...it's good winter is here...time to slow down...heal...think and discover...take care of myself...
I don't know what tomorrow will bring...let alone next spring...
Will I find the love of my dreams...or is it lost forever....am I fool or is he out there somewhere...waiting for the right time...finding a way to gain my trust...my belief...my love....
In the meantime...I wait and find myself again...a new self maybe...a better self...a person who believes in herself because she has learned you have to believe in yourself before others can...the same with love...
There is a hole in my heart...and in my belief and trust of others...going to try to heal them...just got to figure out how...