I am an older woman who has led a life with many stories...but most of them I would not share in such a public forum...I was married for many years and have 3 wonderful grown children and 5 grandchildren I adore...but the marriage didn't last...in consideration of those involved I do not write about that part of my life...it has many wonderful...happy memories...but those are for family only...
I have a job at an elementary school...worked there for many years...I love my job and the people I work with...love the kids...but confidentiality issues these days make me very leery of sharing any work related stories...it is the only job I have ever had and my one source of retirement income...I need my job and someday I will need that pension...:)
Now days life can be hard...bills mount and paychecks barely cover...my place seems to be falling apart one thing at a time and it is hard if not impossible to repair everything...I intended to write about my life now...fixing up things...the adventure...but it kind of fizzled for reasons I don't want to reveal...so that idea for my blog went down the drain...
I have shared a few things from my life...when my dad died I wrote some...but I do not feel comfortable writing too much of my personal life online...
I am an artist and have a sight on Etsy where I am trying to sell some of my artwork...also a smaller site with a few old bottles and vintage things...let's face it I need the money...but sales have been few and far between...I've tried to come up with a way to tie my blog to my stores...but you can only write so much about old bottles...so that leaves my art...
What kind of art? a few paintings I've done over the years and a lot of doodles...these doodles got me through hard times...were a kind of therapy for me...a way to express my feelings...but how do you promote works like these? Tell the story behind them? Again for personal reasons I can't share the thoughts and feelings I had while doing these doodles...so I tell stories/fairy tales using the doodles and paintings as illustrations...while to some who read them parts may seem familiar...to most they are just stories...nothing more...my imagination at work...
You see to put my life out there for anyone to see and read about...would be to put my heart and soul in my readers hands...give them power I have given to only one...for to see into my heart and soul reveals how very fragile I am...I've let one person and one person only see that much of me and I'm afraid of the power they have...the power to either make me whole...or destroy me...its a love like I never thought possible and survives despite so many brick walls...
I've read other blogs...and they write about their lives...I've eliminated that for reasons stated...others write about things they know about...just doesn't fit...crafty people write and do DIY blogs...maybe someday...so for now I choose to write my stories...they are fairy tales...daydreams I may have...some nightmares...for the most part they seem to write themselves...much like the doodles I did and still do the stories are therapy...I can put my feelings...thoughts...wants and needs out there...but only I know the real meaning behind the stories...okay...maybe one other knows...but except for him if he reads these the pieces of my heart are still my secrets...
Stories and fairy tales...and what is life but a collection of tales...I just write mine in a different language...
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