I Choose To

I've really been in a Funk lately...since before Dad died...so much going on in my life and not happy things...today I decided I should put up some Christmas...I don't have room this year for my big tree...so I got out my little one with the Fiber optic lights...I remember when I got it...needed a small tree for a small home...but we needed a tree...needed some decorations to make it feel like Christmas...and it was a glorious Christmas that year...we didn't have much, but we were happy...
anyway I put up the tree and put out a few snowmen from my huge collection...and I cried...it didn't look or feel like Christmas at all...I've thought about getting out some more...going all out...but the truth is I really am not in the mood for more glitter...I don't need or want it...and I've discovered..maybe for the first time in my life...that Christmas isn't in the glitter...the lights...the decorations...it's in your heart...or not there at all...
These days we see so much commercialism we forget the real things of the season...the Magic...
magic in my life has been absent of late...it is what I need...what I want back...but how?
Find my Belief? in life...in Love...in people...it's still there...buried deep inside...and I want to let it out...let the magic shine for all to see...

Believe...7 letters....not that big a word...but it holds so much meaning...what we choose to believe for ourselves is what life gives to us...so I choose to believe in Magic again...I choose to Believe in Love again...I choose to Believe in You again...
Somehow....somewhere...sometime...my heart will know your love again...my soul and yours will become one again...I believe in you...always have...always will...
This Christmas is a turning point...today is a turning point...the tide has turned and coming back to me...my heart reaches out to you...Believe in me as I Believe in you...make the Magic true...
Wishes can come true...if you wish hard enough...long enough...

And this year My wish is for Love...the kind that comes Once In a Lifetime...the kind I had with you and can have once again...