She told me you married her...gave her the name that was to be mine...why should it hurt so much to know you finally married, but not to me...you called me your wife once upon a time...but never made it official...now another has that right...she told me so, so it must be true...it tore my heart again...I didn't know it would hurt this much...not after so much time gone by...can't stand the pain...can't stand another wears your ring...so finally..
What does the word Believe mean anyway? It means that despite everything you see...hear...read...or experience to the contrary...you still believe...in what? in whatever...be it a person...an idea...to me it was a person...I believed in them...despite all things pointing to him being no more a prince...I gave him opportunity after opportunity to prove to me my belief in him was just...but time and time again I was ignored and left without hope...
He once told me he didn't care if anyone else believed in him...he believed in himself and that was all he needed...he's right...he doesn't need another to believe in him...he only needs himself...doesn't care what others think of him..he thinks highly of himself so what others think is their problem not his...
I even tried handing out the hand of friendship...as he had told me a little over a year ago he considered me a good friend...ignored again...you don't ignore friends...so he lied again...
I'm tired of being lied to...tired of trying and it being one-sided...so here I am finally getting all this off my chest instead of holding it in...time to burn the bride...no more hoping he'll change his mind and if I hold on just a little longer we'll be together again...no more believing in him..or in miracles...
She told me he was hers...told me they were married...to go away...to let him be...she told me he was hers...
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