It was all just a dream she told herself hours later when she woke up...I am not going back to that place...not going back to the life I had with the prince or the Wizard...some dreams are close to being nightmares...even if they hold a ring of truth in them...she would like to talk again with Sam...whoever he was, he did give her sage advice...and I really wish I could find a potion to take to make some things disappear...but alas I don't think one exists...no happy pills either...
Someday I will learn how to smile again...and trust another...maybe even love without reservations...I'm tired of life for the moment she thought...I just want to hide and forget life...too much stress...to many things to be responsible for...need change...need it very much...but when? how?
I'll find my own way she decided...take my own brand of a happy pill...who cares the outcome...do whatever it takes to survive....if it makes my life shorter...so be it...I only want the immediate gratification...instant results...yes, that is what she will do...hide it behind a smile...
No one need know but her what she is doing...what she is taking to forget...to survive...tomorrow she will find her cure...one way or another she will take back her life...make it her own...and to heck with anyone who doesn't want to be a part of it...
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