Done Playing the Game

Red's body dissolved into nothingness...Wolf looked down at what Red had put in his hands...a ring with a small purple stone...the one he had given her long ago...and a piece of paper...folded up small...

What did she give you Wolf?
Nothing, VamP... just a paper...and he shoved it all in his pocket...he got up and wandered away to read the paper...alone...

I am done playing this game we have been playing...me writing...you reading...never answering...I love writing stories...different ways we could have been... fantasies of us...I really don't know if I can do this...God knows I've tried before and then I think of another story...another thing to let you know about...and off I go again...but it has to stop...it's not right...it hurts...I have to let go and let you go...you have to let go of me...Stop reading my emails...delete them...they are of a past that doesn't exist anymore...
Devote your thoughts to what you have now, as I should... we are having an online affair...a Dance of sorts...I write...you read... some days you can't wait...you barely get to work and get online and read what I've wrote...then you have your weekends and disappear...live the life you have...
You see, I was going to use this blog...decided to do more with it...went ahead and got a tracker back...and was I surprised at what I found...Is it you? is it her? someone, and I'm thinking you...reads this blog...a lot...why?

I'm so confused...you told me once that you never looked back...just walked away and that was that...why can't you leave it all alone...why are you still looking back? I'm your past...your mine...but it's the past, no future for us...you chose that...I kept believing in you...in our love...till the day I die I will love you...but you chose another...so it must stop...I can't/won't feed your hunger anymore...I'm not here...I'm not anywhere you are or can look...not online anyway...I won't be your online affair...your dreams may go on...but I won't feed them...yes, it is an affair...you have feelings still or you wouldn't be reading...wondering...thinking...feeling...you may still read my old emails...go back and read these posts...but no new ones...not anymore...I'm leaving...stopping before I go completely crazy...
Someday...maybe there will be a someday, I don't know...all I know is that today and for so many yesterdays I've tried and it hurts too much to keep on trying...you belong to her, not me...you chose her so stop messing with my heart...stop hurting me...stop unless you mean to make it right between us...
I'm going to a place you can't follow unless you really mean to make it forever...and I know that is just my dream, not yours...so Goodbye Wolf...
Always,
Red