What is Real?

What is real and what is the stuff of dreams? Nightmares? I don't know anymore...

Does wishing make it so? or am I living in a dream world where nothing is as it seems? I want to believe...in people...in the "truths" they tell me...but I don't know how to trust...how to believe when my life has been filled with so much doubt...so many things I believed to be true taken from me and shown to be false...if only one person would find the way to make me believe again...fight for the right to have my trust and love...sure one can say...trust me...I tell you the truth...I love you...etc...
but do I blindly trust and believe? NO, I can't...I've been deceived too many times....
This is the reality I find myself in...wanting to believe...to trust...to love...but afraid...
Then I find a story someone posted on Facebook...about a love all but lost...the fight on one persons part to find that love again...and it worked...but in the end it was too late...for death came too quickly and they were never to learn they had won...the lesson? never give up because you never know when you might be close to winning and if you quit you'll never know how close you were... Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up...

So, which reality do I choose? Which life? Which dream? Which love? I can't give up...maybe the next time will be the one that works and I will have who I want....who I believe in...who I love...
This reality? or a past one? or a new undiscovered reality?
Be truthful...tell me you love me if you do...be honest with yourself and me...don't waste another minute of our lives...let our reality be a life together...one of love and trust and believing in one another...life is short...you may not get another chance to make things right...
I love you...Please love me...