Spring!

It's finally Spring...warmer weather...sunshine and everything is starting to grow and turn green...gotta do the Happy Dance and celebrate..

 I love Spring and summer even more...my favorite day is the day I am driving home from work or to work and realize everything is green...all the trees have leafed out...the grass is growing .. wildflowers here and there...Spring...oh wonderful, beautiful Spring...

 The birds and animals are pairing two by two...tis the season...I wonder if I am paired with the right one? Most times are happy...fun and full of adventure...but his mind is elsewhere...on the next deal...the next find...when does it get to be my turn? Even "going on Strike" didn't seem to faze much...all I want is a partner...a lover...a best friend...someone to share my life with...someone to hold me...touch me...want me...even if it's just holding hands...

I just want to know I am loved and wanted...not a convenience that makes life easier...so many questions...my intuition doesn't seem to be working this time..maybe because it has failed me so many times before..afraid to trust...when you don't have the life you imagined...desired...how do you find the happiness anywhere else?